Song of the Day:

something came from nothing today
while i was saying no

so don't you knock on my door
cause i can't answer you anymore

absence makes the heart grow far
stayin' away from the people

was a question before
but i can't answer you anymore

stepped to the sea ?
i did everything right
for somebody that does everything wrong

so i go from coast to coast
over the hawthorne bridge

to the one i adore
you asked me what i'm looking for
but i can't answer you anymore
no i can't answer you anymore ~ elliott smith - i cant answer you anymore

So i went and got my tattoo yesterday. which is absolutly fucking fantastic. i couldnt believe how beautiful it was when he showed me what he drew up cause i just came in there with a photo of a longstemed rose and the letters XO on either side of the stem. and he drew up this amazing thing. it has leaves and a few baby thorns and a put a rose budding at the bottom right below the O. i thought it was beautiful. hahaha. and he kept hitting on me when i firt got there. i was like 'hold on...what... i really hot guy is hitting on me' at first he was like ' so you married, dating, single?' and i told him that im single. and he was like ' now why would a girl of your calaber be single?' hahaha. in my head i was like ' calaber? the calaber of average?' and i told him all of the stupid shit about shane and he was like ' yea i can see why you dont like him'then we started talking about work and i said that i worked at staples and he was like ' oh, well if you worked at the staples in edmonton i would come and visit you' once again i was like 'what?, whats going on' but i just laughed and was like' ah, unfortunatly i work at the staples in leduc' then he said someting about me being very passive girls and how he really likes passive girls and stuff. i was tottaly like what the hell is going on. then we were talking about the corpse bride and he was like 'yea i really want to see it but i have no one to go and see it with...' hahaha. i was just so confused cause he is a fucking hot guy who i normally look at be like ' wow. that would be cool to get to know him' but nothing more cause yea. just because. im me. but he said he just broke up with his girlfriend and was like' so i just dont want to date anyone right now but i still want to see people' while eyeing me. the was like' so what are you doing, dating, taking a break?..' i just told him im going with the flow of whatever happenes cause i have no clue what i really want. it was funny cause later me him and bobbi were talking and he was like' i only want to fuck girls right now, not date them. as horrible as that sounds' it just made me laugh. to bad im not the kind of girl who would sleep with him. hahaha. but yea the tattoo was fine. he did a very gentle job and complimented me of my 'such soft skin' lol. he's so smooth. it wasnt bad at all until he started doind the part right near my elbow. that hurt. cause its all bone. then after he told me about the care of it and sounded like a total robot. lol. i wasnt listening cause i got distraced by it and when he was done talking i was like ' wow, you really sounded like a computer while saying all of that' he just laughed and said' i have to say that so many times a day' then i was paying for it and stuff and he was like ' so you should come in, in a couple of weeks so i can see the tattoo' i said i would. bobbi and sara are getting their tattoo's by him so i have to take them in for their consultation some times. so i have to go back.

then when we got back we went to saras house and drank and watched brad and bobbi play this really cool video game where its all these rappers and they're fighting and stuff. it was actually really cool. which reminds me that i rented harry potter the prizoner of azkaban and left it in the car. damn. anywho. bobbi got so damn drunk. it was really funny cause he was doing this dance.i cant even explain it but me and sara were laughing so damn hard. then after everyone left me sara and bobbi were all going to sleep. we were all sleeping in bobbis bed cause its so big and amazing. and we layed there talking for a while theni feel asleep for like 10 minutes then work up cause the music got really loud all of a sudden. we were listening to sigur ros. then it got turned down and i felt bobbis hand pet my head and he was like 'i love maegan' and so i said 'i love you to bobbi' and he was like ' doyou promise' hahaha. i was like 'yes bobbi i promise' . i love sara and bobbi alot. i think they are just such great people and i dont feel like a third wheel when im with them so its just great. we were talking about moving out togeter.i would like it alot i think. but then sara said that they still might be moving to england and i should go with them for a year or something. i think it would be a really cool experience. so its something to think about. but i would miss everything here alot. who knows. its all up in the air right now!

Maegan

whatever this is of the day: stupid stupid fuck fuck fuck. stupid. fuck.

god damn. i was in such a good mood since last night. then i come on the computer and read a message from shane and now i feel like absolute shit.he is such a fucking idiot. i was expecting him to call me of at least reply to my message on nexus. but he never did. then i went on nexus and saw that he removed the 'i heart this girl' caption from my profile. and that was like a total slap in the face. i was so hurt and then my hurt turned into anger andi sent him another message basically saying ' so you can take to time to remove that caption but you cant take the time to call me or at least reply to my messages?' and then we writes back ' i said i was sorry and explained myself what more do you want me to do. i thought that you didnt want anything to do with me after i talked to you at chilis' . i mean. i mean. its not like i can just feel 100% better after he aplogizes. it doesnt work like that. but if thats the hardest he's going to try to make me feel better and to try and fix this. then i honestly dont think that he's very sincere in what he said. he was saying that he 'respects me' and 'didnt want to break up with me' and some other shit. i dunno. if i did the same thing to i shane 'accidently' dating someone cause i wasnt think and heard that he was tottaly crushed about it. i would feel horrible and try phoning him to talk about it and try and fix it cause he still ment alot to me. but here's the thing. i didnt start dating someone else cause i still cared alot about him. weird.this is just so stupid. i dont even know what to do. i dont want to think about him cause when i do i think about him with his girldfriend and how they are probably sharing 'tender little moments' like me and him did. fuck. it hurts alot.


in other news. work is going fine. i was finally getting over shane thinking he was going to call me and we were going to work it out and was in a really good mood. then tara called me to the front and was like 'um, there someone on the phone who asked for maegan from the sales floor' i was like. 'hmm. maybe its kaley or someone calling for me' so i went to pick it up and some guy obviously diguising his voice was like 'hellooooo. do you happent o seel markers' hahah i was like 'uh...yes. we happen to have alot of markers' and i kinda paused. then i heard laughing in a normal voice and knew who it was he was like 'hey, its greg' hahaha. it just made me smile. he's so funny. i guess him and amber were talking about missing everyone from work so he called to say hi. while i was talking to him i saw victoria writing something on a post it note. then she put it in front of me and it said 'see i told you he had a crush on you' it was really funny. but the last thing i want is another boy. cause you know. i have a conscience. (fuck fuck fuck) ANYWAYS it was just really funny and cute. i guess him and amber are going to get tattoos tomorrow. i asked what he was going to get but he said it was a surprise. i wouldnt be surprised it was like...zelda. or something to do with video games... i willbe my self 20 dollers that it will have something to do with nintendo.

i got a letter in the mail from the school. cause our little grad thingys coming up. where we go back and pick up out diplomas and have a little ceromony. and guess what it said. i, maegan glynn, am recieving an award. hahaha. im pretty sure i read that they give out an award for whoever has the highest mark in english 30-2. and i did. so i think thats what its for.and im excited to see all my old classmates. ambers flying down and justin had better be there. it shall be very awesome and hopefully take my mind off of stupid shit.

Maegan

Song of the day:

Doo doo doo doo
Doo doo doo doo doo doo
Doo doo doo doo
Doo doo doo doo doo doo
Ohhh doo doo hmm
Ohhh doo doo doo doo

I prayed heaven today
Would bring its hammer down on me
And pound you out of my head
I can't think with you in it

I'd drag all that I owned
Down the dirt road to find you
And my shoes, worn-out and used
They can't take me much farther
Ohhh

Something always takes the place of missing pieces
You can take and put together even though
You know there's something missing

The sun burned a hole in my roof
I can't seem to fix it
And I hope rain doesn't come
Wash me down the gutter

Something always takes the place of missing pieces
You can take and put together even though
You know there's something missing

She rides in a car
Like a queen on a card
And the guns of her mind
Aim a line straight at mine
To a heart that is broke
Tried to feel but got choked
In the smoke of a desert
A beach with no treasure
A night that seems blue
Feed the aching in you
And the background birds
Take a flight from the earth
A bonfire burns
And the night current turns
On a lifeboat floating
Down a river of sleep
Can't see her hollow eyes
Walking along with my boots full of rocks
Can't believe these tears of mine
I give 'em to you to keep away in a box

Something always takes the place of missing pieces
You can take and put together even though
You know there's something missing

Something always missing
Always someone missing something
Something always missing
Always someone missing something
Something always missing
Always someone missing something
Something always missing
Always someone missing something
~ missing - beck

This is one of the best songs i have ever heard. from the moment i first heard becks voice come in i was in love. i just think its such an amazing sounding song. and the lyrics are pretty easy for me to relate to right now. so i guess that helps as well.

I went to edmonton on saturday with sara and bobbi. i had to stop at eye of the lotus to make a tattoo appointment. i met patrick who was really nice. i liked him. and i didnt feel all awkward around him like i usually do with people. whick is good cause im going to be sitting in a room with him for over an hour. We got so lost trying to find the place there. and i've been there 3 times before! im such an idiot. but kaley wrote me out directions and she wrote 116th AVE and its actually street. so the ave threw us wayyyyyyy off. lol. so we eventualy stopped at a gas station and go the directions. We were all starving afterwards and bobbi wanted to go to chilis. i didnt really want to cause shane works there but we were all like 'he workds in the back. and usually works late' and stuff. so i caved and went. and i had the most delicious milk shake. so that was cool. but then, guess who shows up. the one and only shane. it felt like someone slapped me in the face when i saw him. he said he needed to talk to me so we went out side. and it was probably the dumbest conversation in the world. but im sure couples have conversations like this all the time. that makes me sad. It was just him saying 'im an idiot; i wasnt thinking etc etc' and me nodding me head ' i already know all of this' he said he has alot of family problems and shit. which of course i feel bad about but i just dont get how you can start dating a girl because you 'werent thinking' and god. how is that supposed to make his girlfriend feel. if she heard he said that. i know that would make me feel like shit. but i already feel like shit being in the 'old' girlfriend position. I mean. i really wanted to become good friends with him so that we could comfortably date other people. but he didnt even give us a chance to get into that. i was still stuck in the 'i still care about him alot 'mode. and it sucks. the thought of him holding another girls hand, kissing her. etc. just breaks my heart. i mean how would he fucking like it knowing i was dating some random guy and kissing and cuddling with him. i would expect that to make him feel like shit as well cause he says he 'still cares alot about me' . and he sure is good at showing it. jesus. im going to take a vow of silence, cut off all interaction with everyone and being a hermit in my parents basement.

Maegan

Song of the day:

everything is gone but the echo of the burst of a shell
and i'm stuck waiting for a passing feeling
in the city i built up and blew to hell
i'm stuck here waiting for a passing feeling
still i send all the time
my request for relief
down the dead power lines
though i'm beyond belief
in the help i require
just to exist at all
took a long time to stand
just an hour to fall.
i'm stuck here waiting for a passing feeling
stuck here waiting for the passing feeling
still i send all the time
my request for relief
down the dead power lines
though i'm beyond belief
in the help i require
just to exist at all
took a long time to stand
just an hour to fall.

~A passing feeling ~ elliott smith

I hate being upset at all. its stupid. and im such an idiot cause when im depressed i tend to reminecse in the past. god. and it always just makes me feel like shit. i was reading some of shanes old blogs about me and him and looked at some of mine. it just sucks. i hate knowing that he's doing couple stuff with some other girl. it makes me feel horrible. god. but my friends are just so damn amazing. all of them. are all just so amazing to me. they all comforted me and didnt look at me like an idiot when i started crying at the show. cause i sure felt like an idiot. and bobbi and trever even offered to beat him up. hahaha. of course i said no. then miranda called me talking about telling him to sleep with one eye open and something involving i think ass raping and a donkey. haha. oh that miranda. they are all just so caring. i love it. it does help me feel alot better. welli guess its just ups and downs. it helps me feel better but sometimes i still just feel horrible. i hate this. and he hasnt talked to me at all since i found out. i messaged him on nexus. it wasnt the nicest message i know but i still expected him to at least try to talk about it. and he hasnt called either. which just pisses me off even more. at least make a fucking effort to fix this. it doesn help with kaley saying ' i really dont think he's going to make any contact with you at all. ' but she said that cause she said he's a 'pussy' and wont want to deal with me yelling at him and stuff. which im sure i will do. i will either yell or just cry or both. ahhhh. why does everything have to be so stupidly complicated.

in good new's im finally going to go and get an appointment for my tattoo. im going to make it for the 1st of october. i have to go in tomrrow to eye of the lotus. i think im going around 12:30 or one. leaving them. im told to ask for 'patoo' his names pat but he does tattoos so its 'pattoo' hahaha. genius. that actually made laugh alot.

i talked to faytima to. i always feel better when i talk to her. sometimes i get so angry with her and just dont want to talk to her but when i do i cant help but forget about all of it. it kinda sucks cause nothing gets dealed with. but whatever. i love her and dont want to stop being her friend. she supposed to be coming to calmar....next next weekend. i beileve. lol. then were going to go and see corpse bride. cool cool. kaley wants to go see it on tuesday but i think i work till 9:30 so i doubt i can go. but i might work till 4:15. but shifts alternate like that all week. who knows.

Maegan

oh god im shaking so bad right now. i' havnt been this up set in so fucking long. oh god. well i tottaly give up on my thoughts of a friendship with shane cause now all i want to do is fucking punch him in the face. He started dating a girl the DAY AFTER we fucking broke up . when i found that out i called kaley and just started bawling. i couldnt stop crying. when we broke up i thought it was apparent we still had feelings for each other we just didnt want to get fucking attached before he fucking left. that what he fucking said. didnt want to gett attached befor he left. then he fucking starts dating anothe fucking girl the day after we fucking break up. were they just waiting for us to break up of what??oh god. and i went to the used tonight. and i was just in such a upset mood. i kept trying not to cry but i started to during the first band. i hate fucking crying over boys being tottal fucking idiots. god damn it.

the show was good. but oddly i dont feel like talking about it. but it was amazing. and thankfully all it took was alexisonfire and the used to take my mind off the fucking asshole. oh god. i cant believe how pissed off i am. and hurt. god damn. it hurt so bad when i found that out. and saw how he was 'smitten' for her. the same fucking words he used on me. FUCK. im so fucking pissed

lyrics of the day:

I
said what you wanted to hear
and what I
wanted to say
so, I
will take it back
are all of the dishes in tact?
let them be
broken
broken
it's easy to be
easy and free
when it doesn't mean anything
you remain
selfless, cold
and composed


god. i havnt written in forever. im an asshole. anyways. a little 'catch up' i guess. me and shane broke up. :(. it was really sad but thought it was for the best. im just no good with boyfriends and with him moving to scotland and stuff. the whole situation was just confusing for me. Before we broke up though i was on nexus and i saw he had these lyrics or something on his page that made me cry. i dont remeber what they were but they just made me feel horrible and really sad. it sucks. i just know that i will never date a guy who's as good to me as shane was. he was jsut amazing. he said that he wanted to stay friends. i hope that he stays true to that cause if he doesnt it will fully break my heart. but we were talking and he said its probably good to break up so we dont get really attached to each other and then he just leaves to scotland. blah. it sucks. i thought the break up was really good though. but i get sad sometimes. but theres nothing i can do. so whatever. relationships are usually just trouble anyways. why would i think this one would be any different.

hmm. i got two new dogs a while ago. they're pugs and so damn cute. they're names are kelso and katie they're three years old. we got them for free two. thats what makes the whole thing crazy. but its nice haveing a dog back in the house. i missed leiko alot.

and works going by great. lol. theres this guy named greg working with me. he's so funny. i have alot of fun when he's working. we just have a lot in common and have teh same sense of humor so we get along really well. viki thinks he has a crush on me but i just shruged it off. i think i only see him as a friend and i dunno. me and shane just broke up. i dont want togo rushing off into a relationship. not my style i suppose. but greg is hilarious. him and ambe went to fort mac for 18 days though :( it made me sad. greg amber brad and viki are my favorites. now i've lost two for a while. they had to go out there cause the staples was running low on employees and needed some extra help. im already excited for them to come back because they make work go by quicker.

Maegan

Lyrics of the Day:

naked except for a perpetual debt
that couldn't be stripped away
an unrightable wrong that moved him
along closer to division day
~ division day - elliott smith <3<3

monday was nikki's 18th birthday. we went to whyte ave to the bars. poor nikki. kaley bought her the infamous prarie fire. needles to say she ended up puking one the floor. it was funny/ but of course i felt bad for her. she shook it off and everything. kaley had to leave early though cause she had to work the next morning. then sean showed up. i havnt seen him in a while so it was cool. oh man he made my night when he was dancing to usher. it was high-larious. let me tell you. he was like 'oh man im going to just go nuts if usher comes on' oh man. then it came on. the ones that like 'doot doot..doot doot.' he just gets up stalks out to the floor. pauses. then when a doot came on he just let at it. it was awesome. me and shane were laughing so hard. ah then me and my big mouth made shane really worried and sad. i said something about how if we break up we have to stay friends. and then kept talking about how i had no intention of meetin someone im going to be with forever so young and stuff. then he got all worried and sad and sat there distant for a long time. seeing him like that crushed me i felt like such an asshole. ah it was a mess. but we fixed it i guess. then sean gave us a talk about how we are each other 'shits' when gwen stafonie came on ' holla back' 'this shit is bananas' lol. it was funny. then we went to a hotel and passed out. well that was our intention cause i was sick and shane was tired. but then brianna and sean were playfully arguing. which i ddint mind cause i dont want then fighting anymore. but at one poing sean threw a sock at brianna and instead it hit shanes cold tea and it feel all over me and the glass hit my head. i didnt really care it just hurt. i knew it was an accident. but shane was man. its nice he cares so much though. but yes. im summerizing cause im getting tired. good night

Maegan

Lyrics of the day:

Please don't go crazy, if I tell you the truth
No you don't know what happened
And you never will if
You don't listen to me while I talk to the wall ~ Snow patrol - how to be dead

I picked up snow patrols c.d....i cant remeber what its called. i have to urge to call it 'hot fuss' but i sure as hell know its not that. ah. its a good c.d. and i also picked up weens c.d...i also dont remeber the name of that one.weird fucking c.d. hahaha. i like it though. they are very eclectic to say the most i guess. but its cool. i love 'push the little daisies' i just love that song. hahaha. shane was also the biggest sweetheart in the world and burnt me a c.d with elliott smith stuff on it that i havnt heard because my computer is lame and i cant uaually down load stuff. he's just to good to be true. and faytima bought me elliott smiths c.d roman candle. yesterday was just a elliott fantastic day.

I went to st.albert yesterday. it was fun for the most part. we just hung out and hung out some more. it was shane, kaley,tima, sasha, jen,pat,cam, doyle and boy i cannot remebers name. but of course the night eventually turned sour. faytima invites us out their to hang out and then she goes and fucks off with doyle twice for long periods of time. i mean. comeon. she see's him everyday and when her 'best friends' who she 'misses so much' finally come up to visit and runs off. its stupid. and it pissed me and kaley off so much. and to make matters worse. doyle can get pretty dumb when he drinks. and he nailed my face with his shoulder doing some drunk person move. falling over or some shit, lol. but faytima just pisses me of so fucking much. i wish she didnt. when i was hanging out with her before she ran off with doyle i was happy. i missed her. but then i got to see how much of an idoit a boy makes her and i again got pissesd off. and even doyle was like 'i told you they would get mad if we took off' and faytima was like 'we had to talk' well whatever they had to talk about im sure they could have done right after we left which was right after they got back from talking. but i mean even doyle realizes that me and kaley get mad and tries to tell her and she still doesnt seem to fucking get it. i honestly dont understand her mind. it confuses me alot. bah. whatever.

i went to the fringe today. it was cool. my cousin derek met us there with her friend/sisters boyfriends cousin. lol. i havnt seen derek in such a long time but he's cool. me and my sister were supposed to meet shane at the princess theater at 2 - 2:30ish. of course we were late and didnt get there till about 3. thank god he didnt mind.i warned him we would probably be late. he's awesome. i get to hang out with him tomorrow as well because its nikki's 18th. its going to be fun and im so glad that nikki is finally 18. now all we need is sara to be 18 and i will be set.

hahaha. i forgot. after we left faytima and them me kaley and shane went to tim hortens for some food. and im sick. something with my thoat. and for some reason it gets bad at night. and my voice was all squicky ( how do you spell that?hmmmmm) but it was funny. kaley and shane kept laughing at me whenever i tried to talk because all that would come out was a squick. hahaha. then just to be an asshole. me and kaley were listening to micheal jackson. i think a jackson 5 song actually. the bird one.i cant remeber what its called. but kaley turned in for gas and when she turned the car off the music of course turned off and i kept singing. we laughed pretty hard just because. well im sure almost every has heard someones voice when its all sick like. haha and i cant even sing in the first place. so it was pretty bad.

Maegan

Lyrics of the Day:

Tonight the sky is painted...
Tonight the sky is painted melancholy
and the wind sings songs as if it would lament
some tradgedy on the far side of the world. ~ gatsbys american dream - theater

I love that damn song, hahaha. the damn was needed.i think gatsbys american dream is such a awesome band. and some how, i have no idea how, i forgot to see them at warped tour?? i totttaly forgot and i didnt even think about it till like..2 weeks after it. kaley was like 'hey werent they at warped tour?' while we were listening to theater and i was just like "OH...MY....GOD. " hahaha. man. i have such a bad memory its not even funny sometimes. its pretty horrible.

blah blah blah. it seems like i always find something wrong with mine and faytimas friendship. its never as good as it used to be and it really hurts. i remeber when we used to hang out constantly and never ran out of things to talk about and were always laughing. but then we kinda ran out of things to talk about. i shrugged it off cause surly if you hang out with a person enough theres not going to be chatter all the time. but then she moved away and i never talk to her any more. and when we do she tottaly doesnt make conversation. ill be like' so what have you been up' expecting stories and stuff cause she in st.alber hanging out with everyone and she just like 'well you know. just hanging out...." and shes says it in thsi fucking passive voice and thats it. it pisses me off. im like "well... ummm. ok..' trying to think of something to say but then i realize im at lost for words as well. its stupid. and i finally thought we were making progress we were talking more and i finally got to hang out with her and stuff. it was fun. but then i realized i havnt heard from her in a long time. then i realized Doyles back from P.E.I or someplace. god she pisses me off alot when it comes to him. it hurts because a boy comes along and im suddenly 2nd best and there is this huge gap between 2nd and first. now i dont even feel like im in the top five. i dont even know any more. because the thing that can make me sad the most is that she doesnt even seem to notice. and i've been through this with her before. it pisses me off. also cause when she did live in calmar we never hung out. and now she's living in st.albert and i hear about her always out and doing stuff with her other people. its hurts me. when we did have time to spend together she sat at home. and now she's gone and i never see her and now she goes out all the time. i know she cares about me but i cant help but feel like this. she just can seem so ignorant to other peoples feelings. Im not blaming all of this on her of course. I know i could call her more as well. but i horrible at phoning people and she knows that. i always forget to phone everyone. i dont do it on purpose or anything like that. its just this stupid little thing about me. im pretty sure everything will work itself out but im getting so sick and tired or the ups and downs of our friendship. and whenever i try and talk about it with her all she says is 'im sorry' its because of her im starting to hate those two words. they seem tottaly empty. i dont like sorrys with out explanations and sincerity. ah. but i know she doesnt mean to do any of these things so i just feel bad for thinking like this. i just dont understand how she can be so naive at times. and i hate it that we cant talk anymore. i remeber on canada day she was saying something about how she only got to talk to doyle for 15 mintues or something and she started cry because he had to go. and she was like' i didnt want to tell you because you would have thought iw as a stupid girl' and of course i find it silly. until she tells me it was because she was having a really bad day and she just wanted to talk to him. thats tottaly understandable. i would not have thought she was a stupid girl at all. so two thoughts arised. 1. does she even know me all to think such a thing. i love my friends and im not that big of a bitch to call her a 'stupid girl' for wanting to talkt o her boyfriend because she was having a bad day. and 2. why didnt she call me and talk about it? she just tottaly stopped expressing her feelings to me. thats why i hate the 'im sorrys' because she doesnt express her self at all. its just an 'im sorry' ah. its stupid. im trying to let it and just unsterstand some things are inevitable. i know things will seem fine when i get to hang out with her again. whenever the hell that will be. fuck. whatever

on a happier note. i had to go a buy a spacer for my lip. (staples doesnt allow pericings cause they are lame) and i was like 'lets go to whtye ave' and kaley said that nikki and shane were supposed to be there!! i got really happy and she phone nikki when we got there and they were there! so i was quite happy. i tottaly didnt expect to see him until tuesday so it was just a really nice surpirse. i got to give him and hug and kiss and hold hands with him. he just makes me smile. whyte ave was good. my spacer was 25 dollers. for a little piece of plastic. oh well. hahaha it was so funny to. We were at this show store and sara was showing me these nice shows but they were really expensive an i was like 'oh you can get a pair exactly like those at payless for way less' hence the name, lol. then i saw a guy looking at me with a smile. and i was like ' oh...do you work here?...' and it turns out he did. hahaha i was like 'ummm. you didnt just here me telling my friend to but shoes somewhere else' it was funny we were all laughing. i really do like that store. but some of the shoes are really expensive so why not but a differnt brand that look the exact same for cheaper. i tottaly dont understnad the brand association. it hink its so dumb. i have a pair or low tops that look like converse. but instead of spending 50 dollers on then i spent 15. it was awesome. and they look the way i like. they just arent converse. lables are lame. i dont understand how things become cool and why people 'have' to have them. anywho.i get to see shane on tuesday and thats jsut plain awesome. shanes my favorite brand, hahaha. sorry. had to say that. lame i know. but thats what im all about

Maegan

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ahhhhh. i have the biggest headache in the world. i've taken 3 advils since 5 and its still hasnt gotten any better. i just have to try and not move very much, hahaha, cause when i do it hurts so much. but guess why i have a headache. from working. oh yes, i finally got a job. im working as the temporary set up crew for staples. i just started today. i was doing inventory and i was reading numbers all day and now my head wants to blow up. yey. but i was a pretty good day until my head started to hurt. there were only 3 other people there today cause its a holiday and they didnt need very many people. buti guess tomorrow theres going to be about 15. im going to feel really shy and awkward. but i did today as well but after i started working i kinda relaxed. and oddly. i kept smelling play-doe. i kept that observation to myself, lol. but that was all i was smelling. sometimes i got an uber awesome wiff of wood, but it was usually playdoe. im abivilant to the smell of playdough. well enough about playdoe i havnt wrote ina while. lets catch up, shall we?

on friday i went to seans party. me and kaley were supposed to stay the night but she ended up having to work the next morning :( sad day. so we were only there for a few hours. but i was really happy i got to see shane. i just really like being with him. it makes me smile :D. unfortunatly him and rebeca got into a little bit of a yelling match. but i understand why they did. well i dont really get why rebeca was so upset. but i guess things just kinda escalated from there. what can you do?? im sure everything will blow over in time. it always does. But after the argument me and shane went for a walk. we found an....electicity box. is that what kids call them these days? lol. it was like as big as me, lol. so shane had to boost me up. it was funny. hahaa. and i was talking to faytima yesterday and she was like : could you and shane see me? i snuck up to the fence to spy on you guys and when i looked over it looked like you were both starting at me" hahaha. i didnt notice her. but we were talking about the party and looking at the house. then we decided to walk some more and we were walking throught the field and found and nice little play ground. we sat there for a while. lol. he kept making me laugh. it was just funny cause we would be kissing and one of us would start gigglilng. it was cute. im excited to see him again. he said he was going to come to calmar on thursday but thanks to my new job he cant :( but oh well there will be other days. in soooo excited for him to come to calmar. lol. i have a day of boared game fun planned. muwhahaha.

i went to klondike days on thursday to see matt good. it was good i really like him. then i went again on saturday with nikki brianna and faytima. it was fun. i wish i could hang out with all of them more.i hate when i dont write in here for a long time, then i have stories and i just dont want to type them anymore, lol. thats the case right now. i saw finger eleven that night. they played 3 new songs. im going to their site right now to see about a new album. ...muwhahaha again.

Maegan